He's resting better

Ethan seems to be doing much better now. His blood pressures are coming down which I think helps with his headaches. I was even able to start breastfeeding him again, however it is kind of awkward with all of the lines and tubes. In fact the second time the nurse handed him to me to feed, his arterial line tubing became disconnected and blood just started spurting everywhere. I quickly reconnected it and she made the comment that she was so glad that I was a nurse, not only to have fixed it, but so I didn't freak out with all of the blood.

My dad and I went up to the hospital tonight to see Ethan. He looked so peaceful and relaxed. I think he may have been having good dreams because he was cooing and having little smiles in his sleep. My dad however got the first real smile since surgery. Ethan had been slowly trying to wake up. He would hear us talking and try to open his eyes but then they would just roll back and close. But one time my dad was talking to him, they made eye contact, and then there it was. The cutest smile. I'd been working hard all day to get it but I'm glad Grandpa Gary got it instead.

We took him his mobile that he really likes that his Grandma Betty and Grandpa Larry had bought him the last time he was in the hospital. I think he will really like having it with him. I also took his ducky blanket home and washed it because it was getting kind of yucky. Plus it smelled like the hospital. He still enjoys listening to the CD's. I think it actually helps him focus and to not be startled with every noise the hospital has to offer.

It is still so hard to leave him and go home, but at least tonight I feel better knowing he is resting comfortably. I hope this is a continuing trend.

I also wanted to just thank everyone (Family, Friends, Neighbors, Ward Members, and even all of you who I haven't met but are praying for us). I can't express to all of you the gratitude that I feel for all of your help (for example: babysitting, rides, meals, prayers, and kind words of support). A simple thank you does not do it justice. I am so blessed to have such a great support system. You are all the reason that I am even coping with this. Please know my love for all of you.

--Allison