Monday, June 4, 2012

This Feels Weird

First of all, I should start by saying that yes, this really is Allison.  I know that it may be confusing since my oldest son has been the author of the last couple of posts.  Thinking about it, maybe I should change my password. 

Anyway, when I look back over the last year and a half or so since my last real post, it seems like so much has happened and yet as I sit here, there is not much that I can recall that has been worth posting about.  There have been trips and vacations, school, work, and the occasional funny moment, but it all seems too far gone to try and catch up. 

So here is my dilemma.  I really don't think anyone reads this anymore so it doesn't seem like it would matter much if I just went on and on about my deepest thoughts or my boring day to day life. However, after going back and reading past posts, I really enjoyed remembering some of those "I totally forgot about that" moments.

I obviously haven't been good about keeping up this blog and don't think I can commit much to it in the near future. So, I think what I've decided is that I will really try to at least catch the highlights of my day to day moments (maybe monthly? It's at least a goal anyway).  And then when I do have the times where the journal is needed for my own personal introspection, this blogging thing won't seem so weird anymore.  I used to blog to get the information to family and friends about Ethan's heart condition and then it turned into a way for me to vent and to get support and to try and sort out all of my thoughts and feelings.  It really seemed to help to be able to make enough sense of them to be able to write them down . But now it just seems rusty.  Plain old weird. 

For what it's worth, I'm still here.  Our family and Ethan are all doing really well and hopefully sometime in the near future I will post some pictures and will try not to be so awkward in my writing. Until then,........oh how do I end this?  Seriously!  I told you I was rusty.