What Are The Odds?

Have you ever heard that it comes in 3's? Well, I hope that is true.

You all know about Ethan and his congenital heart problems and all the challenges that come with that. Also, I wrote a post a few months ago about my my sister Karalee's son Austin (who is 7) who was just diagnosed with Muscular Dystrophy. He actually got to make a wish last Saturday through the Make a Wish Foundation to go to Disney World. It was a very special and emotional afternoon. It was also a little bitter-sweet knowing that Ethan will be granted a wish one day when he is older. Although the Make a Wish Foundation is truly an amazing organization, you never want to be in a position to use their services.

Anyway, those were numbers 1 & 2. My brother Darren and his wife Jenn just gave birth to a sweet little girl on Monday night. I was in shock to hear on Tuesday morning that she was being transferred to the local children's hospital for surgery. It turns out that she has Downs syndrome, an imperforate anus, and an AV canal heart defect. She had surgery to create an ostomy on Tuesday and now she just needs to grow for a few months until she will need open heart surgery to correct her heart defect. I was able to go up and see her last night and she is just beautiful. She is also doing amazingly well.

Darren and Jenn have been such an example of strength and are handling it all much better than I would have. They have both said that the Downs syndrome is not a big deal but were both pretty upset when they found out about her heart defect. Of course they are feeling the array of crazy emotions that come with ALL of this but they really appear to be keeping it together. I just know what a mess I was with Ethan and they have shown much more strength than myself.

So, honestly, what are the odds that 3 completely different medical conditions happen in the same family when there is absolutely NO family history of ANY of this on either sides of our families? I am not sure what the odds are, but I do feel that it is no accident. Looking back at my experience with Ethan, there were countless things that were prepared for us before he was even born. I feel that these children have chosen us and trust us to love and care for them in our homes.

Now, this is not to imply that all the other children aren't special as well. I just know that these children are here for a reason and that our family is better because of them. I also know that it is a privilege to have them in our family and we have had and will continue to have many blessings because of them.

----Allison

A New Addition?

Again, I am not pregnant. We did in fact get a dog. We had a family dog about 2 1/2 years ago who we all loved but she broke her chain and got hit by a car. Ever since then the kids have been BEGGING us to get another family pet. We've been putting off getting one until our yard was in and had a fully fenced yard so that we wouldn't risk this happening again. The problem is, we've been telling our kids that this would be done for about 2 years now. (When Ethan was born, it threw off all of our timing to get any major projects done.)

The topic has seemed to die down at times, but it has recently come up in full force. Several factors had played into our decision to finally get one. The first being that I really do feel that the kids have been patient with us putting it off for so long. The second being that Gavin has a tendency to want to leave our house (despite the extra locks we've put on the doors). We felt that if he had a playmate at home, that he might not feel the need to find a friend so intently. And thirdly, Ethan is in LOVE with dogs. Anytime the neighbor's dogs bark, Ethan barks and wants us to hold him at the window while he watches them. It seemed pretty pathetic that his only interaction was through a window, looking over a fence into 2 caged dogs next door. So, needless to say, Tim and I decided that we would take the plunge.

We started with a dog named Rex that we got from an adoption agency, but after only a couple of hours at our home, we realized that it wouldn't work out. He played very aggressively and didn't know his limits when it came to biting. He bit hard enough to give Tim bruises and scratched up all of our arms. He was a year old and didn't like having limits placed on him. The first time he bit me was when he was chewing on my throw pillows on the couch and just blankly stared at me when I told him to get off the couch. When I tried to guide him off by his collar he bit me several times. We had hoped that after getting used to us, this would stop. Although it did slow down after a couple of days, as soon as you played with him he would start biting again. It was very disappointing that it didn't work out and the kids were devastated when we had to take him back.

The good news is that this isn't the end of the story. On Tuesday, we picked up a sweet little beagle named "Annie". We bought her from a guy in Park City whose landlord wouldn't let him keep her anymore. She is about 9 months old and is super cute and friendly. She loves to play (and she doesn't bite). Her biggest problem is that she knocks Ethan over to lick his face. So, we have been working with her not to do this and just in this short time, she is doing much better. She has also had a few accidents in the house, but we were told she was housebroken, so I hope this will resolve in a few days as she gets used to her new surroundings. I was meaning to get my carpets cleaned anyway, I guess I will just have to wait a few weeks.

Anyway, the kids absolutely ADORE her and I feel she will be a very spoiled and loved dog.

---Allison

A year ago today...

Autumn has always been my favorite time of year. I love the crisp air and the changing leaves. I love the fall holidays and starting of school. There is just something about fall that brings a calm feeling over me.

The other day as I found some quiet time and was reflecting on my life, I realized that exactly one year ago today, Ethan went in for his 2nd surgery. It brings back so many memories when I think back to all that has happened during this time. The majority of these memories are happy ones and continually remind me how very blessed we have been as a family.

As well as looking back over this last year, my mind wanders and I can't help but think forward to the events destined to take place next autumn. We are currently in a "quite period" when it comes to Ethan's health. True, he's had some small issues, but its been manageable and I guess that is expected when you only have half of a heart. And although (so far) it has been a quiet year, as this next year progresses, Ethan's health is expected to decline as he grows which will indicate when his 3rd surgery will be needed. We've been told by our cardiologist that even if he doesn't grow out of his current "plumbing" by then, we should expect to have his Fontan surgery next fall.

Typically, Spring is associated with new beginnings. However, as much as I dread his next surgery, I am grateful that it will be the Fall which will bring Ethan another chance to live a more "normal" life.

---Allison

Check it Out!

So it is still under construction but we now have the basics of our Aid in Africa blog up and running. After creating this new blog with my friend, Carie, it makes me that much more excited for this amazing opportunity. I hope you find it interesting and will follow along with our journey.
---Allison

My Fun Announcement!

So for all of you who thought I might be pregnant, I am sorry to disappoint. The reality is that I have actually been invited to go to Mali, Africa on a volunteer humanitarian mission.

Every year a group of OB/GYN doctors and nurses (through the Utah Alliance) travel to Africa and perform much needed surgeries on women. Prior to surgery, these women are shunned by their communities because their "female" conditions are so severe. They simply don't have access to this type of medical care and services on their own. I really look forward to giving of my time and services.

So, needless to say, I am totally excited (and yet also very anxious/nervous). A good friend of mine has volunteered the last couple of years and has said that it is an absolutely life changing experience. And obviously since hearing her stories, I've always wanted to go. However, after Ethan was born, I never thought that this would actually ever be an option for me. The crazy thing is, is that I didn't even know my friend was going this year. We were simply talking about something non-related when the topic came up. And, it just so happens that this year my friend was put in charge of finding another nurse to go. She asked if I would be interested, and after discussing it in detail with Tim and my parents, we decided that this was an opportunity that couldn't be passed up.

Now as with everything, there is a down side. There is obviously the cost that will be involved (as a volunteer you are financially responsible to get there as well as EVERYTHING you need while you're there). But, the part that makes me the most anxious is that it is a FULL 2 week excursion. I have NEVER been away from Tim that long, let alone my kids. It is slightly reassuring that Ethan is stable and in between surgeries, but I hate the thought of leaving ANY of my family for that long. It will definitely be an adventure as well as a sacrifice for myself, my family, and my parents who will be helping while I am gone.

As far as the time frame goes, we will be leaving a few days after Christmas, so I will have a little time to prepare (but not much considering all that I need to do). Also, I am planning on sending out letters to local businesses in an attempt to raise money to offset some of the costs of the trip. As awkward as this may be, I am hoping that they will see it is for a valuable and needed service. (If you know of any that might be interested/willing, please let me know)

Anyway, so that is my fun news. I am working on creating a blog with my friend's pictures and experiences from the last 2 years, and then I will update it when I can with my own stories and pictures. I will create a link to it when it is up and running.

---Allison

Pictures as Promised

This is Ethan's 2nd plane ride. He came with Tim and I to Las Vegas when we went on our weekend get away. I know I am lame, but I still have a hard time leaving him. We had a great time and Ethan loved all of the 1 on 1 attention.

This was taken at the MGM Grand. This lion display is right in the middle of the casino. I don't think Ethan was quite sure what to think about it. At times he was intrigued and at times he looked concerned.

While the kids are off track, we decided to get a family pass at the zoo. I was feeling adventurous and (by myself) took all 4 kids for an afternoon. Ethan loved the animals and would scream (literally) with delight at each new display. We went to the bird show which was also fun for the kids. With the exception of one of Emily's melt downs (over a stupid map I might add) it was a really fun day. I think we will be going often this year.

While I was feeling adventurous, I also took the kids to my parents cabin for 4 days. (Again, by myself, Tim had to stay home and work). My parents did come up for 1 night which was really nice. The kids and I had several scavenger hunts, rode 4 wheelers, watched movies, and played lots of games. In this picture, we were eating lasagna for dinner and Ethan insisted on feeding himself. He is definitely finding his own little personality. We really had a lot of fun.

Gavin (as well as all of the kids I guess) have developed a fascination with my Ipod. Gavin will find it and have me play the song "We're not gonna take it" by Twisted Sister. He is such a funny kid.

I don't know why Spencer didn't make it into any of the pictures. He tends to wander off and do his own things at times. He did want me to take one of him on the 4 wheeler at the cabin but it was too dark when he asked. We decided to take one the next day, and of course we were having to much fun doing other things, we both forgot. Oops.

----Allison

Loser!

I completely admit that I have been in a blog funk. Nobody but myself to blame. And really, there is no good reason. We have been really busy, but that should just give me more to write about. Right? Also, I have been very poor about leaving comments on all of your blogs. I do read each and every one and really have no excuse. I am sorry. I will do better.

Anyway, since the last post (over 1 month ago, I know), the kids have started school and have already gone off track (they are in year round school). They return back next Tuesday. I really like their teachers so far this year and hope that I am not disappointed.

While off track we have tried to keep busy. The kids and I spent 4 days at my parents cabin. We bought a year pass and had a fun day at the zoo. And Tim and I spent a 4 day weekend getaway in Las Vegas. I do have pictures of all of our adventures and will post them soon.

I also have some REALLY fun news that I will post about in a few days when I have a few more details. You'll have to stay tuned. I promise I won't leave you hanging long. I will update soon!

---Allison

Echo Results

So today Ethan and I went up to PCMC to get another echo to check out Ethan's heart function. I took my camera thinking I would get a cute picture but unfortunately he was very squirmy and I had to help hold him down. So this was taken just after.

But anyway, after talking with our Cardiologist, he says that there is improvement in Ethan's heart function. Our first echo was labeled "below normal", our last echo was " low normal" and today he said he would put us in the "normal" category (for HLHS hearts of course). YEAH!!!

Also, he increased his Enalapril again and said that we didn't need to go back for 6 months! Can I hear another YEAH?!?!?!

I knew that I was nervous going into this appointment but I guess I didn't realize how much until after it was over. I definitely felt relieved while in the office talking with the MD. But I quickly found myself very emotional on the drive home. I guess it just takes some quiet time to let everything sink in. I am pleased to say that the tears today were of relief and gratitude.

I am continually amazed and touched by all of the blessings that I have in my life.

What a roller coaster ride!

---Allison

By Request

So, I understand that I need to post more pictures (thanks for the suggestion Alison). How are these blue eyes for ya?

---Allison

What's My Deal?

OK, so I finally taped Ethan walking but now I can't seem how to get it from the disk to our computer. So, the truth is, you may never see it unless I can pin down Tim to see what I am doing wrong.

This last couple of weeks have been fun. Tim's brother Matt and his family came up from Texas and stayed with us for about a week. We did a lot of fun things like fishing at the fish farm (we actually did this twice), spent an afternoon at the pool, enjoyed 4th of July festivities and fireworks, and played lots of Guitar Hero. We had a great time visiting and the kids loved seeing their cousins. They just left on Monday and we already miss them.

Since then, things haven't really slowed down much. I've been trying to keep up on the house (which seems nearly impossible when the kids are out of school), and if we get at least some of the basics done, then the kids and I have been trying to do some fun things. Today we went to the dinosaur park up in Ogden and we went to see a movie on Wednesday. This week I also had to attend scout camp (I am a Webolos leader). I have to admit that initially I wasn't all that excited about it (I hate thinking about making arrangements for all 4 kids for an entire day), but it turned out to be a lot of fun when I got there.

It has been a good thing that I've been keeping busy because if not, I think I could easily find myself in a slump. My poor kids have been yelled at more this week than they have in a long time. I find myself edgy, easily irritated, tearful, and frustrated. However, before you start feeling too bad for them, you should understand that they have not been innocent bystanders. Emily and Gavin have been so naughty lately! Gavin can get away with it because he is only 3, but Emily and I have been really butting heads. She can push my buttons quicker than any of my other kids and she doesn't know when to stop. I really have a hard time deciding if it's a girl thing, if she is at a difficult age, if she simply has a strong personality, or if I am just an inept mom who doesn't know how to discipline or relate to her. Regardless, I am scared for her teenage years.

I don't think that it helps out that I've been stressed about Ethan's last echo results. He goes in next Friday for a follow up echo (not a sedated one) to see if the med changes have helped his heart function. It just has really been in the forefront of my mind that you never know the future of these little heart kiddos. We just know of a lot of these little heart babies that are struggling right now and sometimes it becomes too much to think about. I even recently read about a little HLHS girl who sailed through her 3 surgeries and was the successful "poster child" for HLHS kids. It was only a month after her 3rd surgery that she had a stroke. I can't stand that anything can happen at any time.

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I've started taking things for granted again. Our overall health has been really good and when things are not bad and right in my face, I tend to turn a blind eye and pretend that everything is OK. I don't like to constantly think about what the next day could bring. I totally fear that something will happen and I will regret the time that I wasted watching TV, cleaning, napping, or yelling at my kids. I realize that these are all normal activities in a day, but I also know how it feels to pray for just one more day with your child. I don't live up to my own promises and expectations of the days and experiences that I would enjoy knowing that our time may be limited. I can't seem to find the balance of living a "normal" life and living one with no regrets.

Anyway, I could also just be hormonal (you never can truly rule that out when you are dealing with a woman, right?) I just know that being a heart mommy is REALLY hard. I have a hard time sorting out all of the emotions (both good and bad) that have come with this unknown territory.

I am sorry that this post is so long and I appreciate any of you who have stuck with it long enough to get to this point. One of these days I will find some balance (it will happen, won't it?).

I don't want to be one of those depressing people that no one wants to be around (or read their blog), so I will end on a positive note and simply say that I love you all (really, I do!)

---Allison

Oficially Walking!!

OK, so Ethan didn't just start walking today. He actually started trying it out a couple of weeks ago but it seems that he has now gotten a hold of it and tries to walk everywhere. He is still in that tipsy stage where you hope he doesn't fall and break something. But he is definitely proud of himself and can walk the length of any room and even on our squishy bed.

I wish his developmental testing had been this week instead of 2 weeks ago because I know he would have scored a lot higher. He was right on target for his cognitive development (which I thought he would be lower because he only says one word) and he was at an 11 month old level for his motor skills (he was 13.5 months old at testing). I was really surprised because I would have placed him higher on his motor skills and lower on his cognitive. I know that his comprehension is good, but I do worry about his speech being delayed. She reassured me that this is normal after having major surgery so soon after birth and then subsequent surgeries. Also, she said he scored lower on his motor skills because he had only been walking for a few days at that point and could not get to a standing position without having to pull up on something. So anyway, now his is walking like a mad man and can stand up wherever and whenever he wants. At times he even tries to run away from you, but he soon falls flat on his face.

I've been meaning to get some video of him walking now that he has met another milestone. So in the next few days I will try and get this done. I hope this weekend finds you all well. Love you all!

---Allison

Saturday, June 21, 2008

This last week has been really busy. I've had appointments of various sorts everyday this week. We've been up to PCMC twice to check Ethan's labs, blood pressures, and adjust his medication doses. His cardiologist feels that the dose of enalapril he is on now is a good maintenance dose. However, he does want us to come back in a month for a clinic visit and to have a quick ultrasound to re-check his heart function. He had originally told us that we would do this in 6 months, so I am unsure as to why he changed his mind. I am hoping that it is only to see if the medication is helping and not because he is overly concerned. I am okay with it. I would rather have them check it more often than risk missing something. Ethan still continues to have problems with vomiting. In fact, it seems that I can't keep up on my regular laundry because the machines are always full of bed sheets, blankets, towels, or soiled clothing. But as long as they don't think it is happening because of his heart, we will just keep doing what we have been and hope that he grows out of it soon. Thanks to all of you who keep up on us (especially since I haven't been as good about writing as frequently). You really don't know what it means to feel like people care and support you. Thank you.

----Allison

Echo Results

So yesterday and today have been spent at PCMC for Ethan's end of study visit for the enalapril study he was in. Yesterday was the echo. The cardiologist does not think that the vomiting is related to his heart. However, the only thing he could say about his heart function is that it is "OK". I've pressed him a couple of times as to what that really means. He basically said that some doctors might say it didn't look very good and that others would agree with him that it is "OK". He said that it didn't look "bad" but he wished it looked better. I have to admit that I was a little bummed about the results. Ethan has been doing really well lately and so I guess I was hoping for at least a "good" echo. But I guess "OK" is better than "bad". He said that we will probably do another echo in about 6 months to see how he is doing.

Ethan also had his developmental testing today and we should be contacted either later today or early next week with those results. I don't think there should be any surprises with those results. I think he is fairly average in most things.

So now that Ethan is no longer in the study, the cardiologist wants to put him on enalapril for real (he may have already been on it but we won't know until the study is over in a couple of months). So we will start this in the morning and check his pressures at our pediatrician's office. Then we have to take him back to PCMC next week for anthother blood pressure check and possible dose adjustment and lab work.

So to summarize the last couple of days I would say that they have been "OK". Hopefully with these medication adjustments we can get some better news next time around.

---Allison

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

I don't know what my problem has been lately. I don't think I've ever gone this long without a blog update before. I guess no news is good news, right?

In my defense, we've been very busy. My sister, Angela got married last Wednesday. She of course looked beautiful and it was a fun night. Also, this last Saturday, we started putting in our yard. I had worked the night before and got to sleep around 6:30 that morning. I was able to sleep till about noon. However, I started feeling guilty and so I got up to help Tim, my dad, and my uncle Brent out in the yard. As soon as I got out there we began rolling out the grass. It lasted pretty much all day long. We did get some help from a few of my brothers and a couple of neighbors which definitely helped. I didn't realize how physically exhausting putting in a yard was. I honestly could hardly move that night, but, it was SO worth it. I can't wait until it's done and the kids and I can finally go out and play in our yard.

This week was supposed to be the developmental testing and sedated echo for Ethan. However, they called me Monday night and told me that it had to be changed until next Thursday and Friday. I was really hoping to get it done sooner, but I guess there is not much I can do about it.

Ethan is still vomiting. He does it at least once or twice a day. His energy level is still really good which keeps me from panicking too much. In fact, today I was making lunch for Gavin and Ethan was sitting on my be watching T.V.. I don't worry about him falling off because he is scared of the edge. However, when I went to go and check on him, he was no longer on the bed or even in the room for that matter. He had climbed off of my bed onto the bench at the foot of the bed and then onto the floor. He then crawled down the hall and climbed up 6 stairs into the bonus room where he was just playing with his toys like a big boy. As soon as he saw me, he started bouncing up and down with a great big smile. You could tell he was SO proud of himself. And although this means my luxury of keeping him in one spot is over, I am proud of him too.

---Allison

Monday, May 19, 2008

So I guess I didn't realize that a week had gone by since my last post. I guess I have been pretty busy.

This last week we took Ethan into the cardiologist to check out a few things that had been bothering me. His oxygen levels have been lower (76-79% at night) and his lips have been looking blue at random times during the day. Also, he is not gaining weight like he used to. However, the main thing that made me call for an appointment is that he had been vomiting anywhere from 10-60 minutes after he would eat. This had been going on for about 10 days and would happen up to 3-4 times a day. Now this is a totally new development and just seemed odd. The Dr. said that he wasn't too concerned by just the looks of Ethan, but that all of these things were worth looking in to. So anyway, they did a chest x-ray and a quick echo to check his heart size and function. Both tests looked OK. The good news is that his tricuspid valve is not leaking as much as before. However, the not so good news was that the Dr. was hoping his heart function would have improved since his last echo was done at 5 days post surgery (and will usually improve with healing), but looked about the same. So not good but not too bad. Also, his blood pressure is still high (systolic around 112-115's) and they would like it in the 90's. So, to make a long story short, they will move his sedated echo from mid July to the 1st week in June. They will be able to check out some more things in debth and will also follow up on his blood pressures. Since the appointment, he has pretty much stopped throwing up (except for when he gags himself) and I have really been trying to up his calorie intake during the day. At this point, I am not too concerned but I will be curious to see what his sedated echo reveals.

This weekend Tim has been out of town. He went to Denver for his cousin's wedding. I wish I could have gone with him but I had my sister's bridal shower on Saturday and needed to stay home. It was just a quick trip. He left on Friday and arrived home this morning. I was able to see him a little while before he went to work. By the sounds of it, he had a really great time. He truly loves visiting with his family. (He tends to get a little lonely since he is the only one in Utah.) He is such an amazing husband and I always miss him anytime he is away. I am glad he is home.

---Allison

Monday, May 12, 2008

So it has really been a busy week or so. We celebrated Ethan's birthday. I had a fun time watching my youngest brother's road trip through all 48 states (and all of the fun publicity in the news about it). We attended an open house for my oldest brother who is going to Saudi Arabia this week for 6 months. We celebrated mother's day (which was really a nice day). And tonight we are celebrating my nephew Austin's birthday (yesterday) and my birthday (tomorrow) tonight at my house. Also, this week I will be preparing to throw a bridal shower for my sister this weekend at my house.

So with all of this happening, there have been a few things that I need to update on. Last week I took Ethan and Gavin for their well being check ups. Ethan weighed 20 lbs 3 oz which puts him in the 10% for weight and was 29.5 inches long (40Th% for height). And Gavin was in the 75% for both height and weight. I was disappointed with Ethan's weight gain because he had dropped in percentiles so much from his last appointment. It turns out that at his last appointment they made a mistake and he was not in the 90% for weight but was really only in the 30Th%. So he did in fact drop, but not as much as it appeared. Ethan is scheduled for some developmental testing and another ECHO in July. I am anxious to see how the Md's feel he is doing. I am hoping I can get him circumcised then as well, but I still need to find out some more information about it.

On a sadder note, my sister Karalee's son Austin (the one who's 7Th birthday was yesterday) has just been diagnosed with Muscular Dystrophy (MD). This is of course is devastating news and she is having a difficult time. She has only 2 kids and has been trying to get pregnant for a while now. It seems so unfair that not only is she having a difficult time getting pregnant, but now she finds out she will watch her only son fight a losing battle. I know some of you know her (and even those of you who don't), but I know that when things have been difficult with Ethan, I have been comforted by the many prayers that have been offered in my behalf. At this time I ask that you will add her and her family to your prayers. They've traveled a rough road and it won't be getting any easier. They really could use all of the prayers that they can get.

The Great American Road Trip!

I don't know if any of you have heard about this on the news, but 1 of the 3 drivers is my brother Adam. Good luck guys!

---Allison

What a Year!!!

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Today is Ethan's 1st birthday!!

In anticipation of today, I've spent a lot of time reflecting on our experiences this last year. As many of you know, Ethan was not a "planned" pregnancy. However, we were very excited when we found out I was pregnant and we truly felt like he was a gift from God. Initially, I doubted my ability as a mother to raise 4 children but I felt that God would not send me another child if he didn't trust me enough to raise and care for him. It wasn't until Ethan was born that I realized how much responsibility my Heavenly Father has entrusted me with. I can't put into words how blessed our family has been to have Ethan in our home. When he was born, our family was complete.

I've created this montage in honor of Ethan who has worked so hard to make his mark in this world. As I have mentioned before, it is a little long (about 10 minutes). The first 2 songs in this montage are extra special to me because I used to play them in the hospital while I sat at his bedside and stroked his tiny head. (At the time I couldn't hold him and it was the only spot I could caress that didn't have protruding wires or tubes.)

I will never forget all of the prayers, love, and support that was given in our behalf during this last year. I want you all to know that we couldn't have done it without you. I pray that together, we will have many more years to celebrate.

I hope that you take the time to watch and honor this amazing milestone with us.

---Allison

Daily Grind

So now that the vacation is over, I've really been trying to get the house in order so that I can get some spring cleaning done. Spencer and Emily started back in school today which should help. As most mothers know, it's hard to get anything done when the messes keep following you.

I am hoping I can get it in pretty good shape by Thursday, so I can take that day off and enjoy it. Believe it or not Ethan will be turning 1 that day! We have been so blessed this year that it is hard to express in words. Because of this, I've made (another) montage. I know you are probably getting sick of them by now, but you can't do it for just 1 child without doing it for the others. This one however is different. It will tell the story of his first year and is longer than the other ones (about 10 minutes). We've had a big year and it was hard to compact it into just a few minutes. So with that being said, watch for it on Thursday.

We celebrated Tim's, Emily's, and Ethan's birthday's (along with a couple of others) on Sunday with my extended family. We had a BBQ and a nice evening of cake, presents, and visiting. I am sure we will do something special on Thursday to recognize Ethan and his journey. I am not sure at this point what we will do but we definitely need to celebrate. First birthday's are always fun and important, but due to the circumstances, this one just seems extra special. Anyway, enough stalling, I need to get back to getting the house clean. I hope today finds all of you well.

---Allison

Texas Pics

This is at the stockyards when they are taking the bulls out for a stroll. This is one of the things we liked to do when we lived in Texas. The bulls are fun to see but there are also some tourist shops that we were able to get some fun souvenirs in.

Spencer and Gavin are having a fun time "shooting" the bulls with their play guns that they bought at one of the tourist shops. Gavin was really getting into it.

We went to Matt's house (Tim's brother) for a day of visiting, water games, and of course a great BBQ. It was fun to sit outside in the warm sun and let the kids run around in the country. Gavin got bit by some fire ants but it didn't seem to slow him down for very long. Ethan loved sitting in this swing.

While in Texas we stayed at Tim's parent's house. I was on the computer when Gavin found these glasses on the desk. I am pretty sure they belong to Larry. I think Gavin thought he looked pretty cool.

The night before we left, we had a birthday party for Emily. Tim's family were very generous throughout our entire vacation as well as at Emily's party. She got some fun gifts. Again, it was nice to spend time with all of Tim's family.

There were so many other fun things that we did while we were in Texas that I didn't take my camera to. We spent a fun night at my friend Donna's house with her family and another friend of mine, Stephanie. I worked so much the year that we lived in Texas, the only friends that I made were people that I had worked with. I have to say, these 2 women are AMAZING nurses and I have the utmost respect and admiration for them. To this day, I try and remember their example to me as leaders. It was so nice to visit and reminisce. There are just some people you never forget.

I don't know why I didn't bring my camera here but we went to the Fort Worth zoo which was SO fun. Emily loves white tigers and was really excited to go see the one they had. Gavin had never been to a zoo before and I don't think he understood that there were REAL animals there. The look on his face when he saw the animals for the first time was priceless. It was a look of awe and excitement. It just so happened to be the monkey exhibit and they were entertaining to watch. Also at the zoo was a bird exhibit where the kids could feed the birds. The birds would fly all around them and then sit on the food sticks they were carrying to eat the birdseed stuck with peanut butter. All of the kids had fun doing this. Although, I have to admit it was fun watching Gavin chase the birds trying to get them to land on his food stick. He was laughing and laughing and obviously had a great time.

Tim and I, Spencer and Emily, and Ashley and Katie (cousins) went to Six Flags. Tim's sister Rachel was kind enough to watch Gavin and Ethan the entire day for us. Again, I wish I had taken my camera but I thought it would be a pain to carry around. Emily's first amusement ride EVER was the Titan. It was 25.5 stories high and went 85mph. She got off and was on an adrenaline high! She was jumping and throwing her arms in the air with shouts of approval and glee. She is such a dare devil. She was crying when there were a couple of rides she couldn't go on because she was too small. In fact, we left the park to go to lunch at Poncho's (an all you can eat Mexican restaurant). On the way back to Six Flags, Emily states she doesn't feel well. Can you see where this is going? We were looking for parking when she began hurling in her lap. She began crying, not because she didn't feel good but because she didn't want this to keep her from going back to the rides. Tim and Emily went home to get cleaned up and then met back up with us later that evening. Spencer on the other hand has announced that he is not a "thrill seeker" and so he preferred the smaller rides. I kept up with the kids pretty well, but I have to admit, toward the end, I began to get motion sickness on the bigger rides and would stay back with Spencer. All in all, it was and amazingly fun day.

We had a great time and the kids all want to go back soon. We have decided that we can commit to going at least every other year to visit. Gavin asked Tim just this morning if we could go back to Texas for "a sleepover". I wish it was closer. We can't wait to go back.

---Allison